You’ve cast your demons out
And not to pull your halo down
Around your neck and tug you off your cloud
But I’m more than just a little curious
How you’re plannin’ to go about makin’ your amends
To the dead
Fantastic. Bleedin’ fanfuckintastic. I have so much to complain about. Mmmhmm.
Pain. So much pain. My ankles have always been slightly weak, but this is just plain pathetic. Both ankles sprained, one is constantly throbbing, and I can hardly keep a book open without my wrists giving me hell. My therapist thinks I’m brilliant, and Laura’s life just went to hell, spat her back up, and took a major shit on everything. Good lord. Watching something like that. I can’t even…
And I’m angry! At my mother, for all the wrong reasons.
Today was another really great day. Though it bothers me that THEY stole MY idea. I UNDERSTOOD quantum physics and the MWI theory WAAAAY before those jerks did. That’s MY time-travel theory, assholes.
:/ I guess its kind of sad explaining the basics of the 4 dimensions to a teacher in class–like doesn’t everyone know that? Feh, everyone I know does at least. What is so hard to understand about; ‘There is no diffirence between time and any of the three dimensions of space except that our consciousness moves along it.’…? It explains itself so plainly! Why teach us something that you do not understand?
Mmm, and all it took was for Michael to turn to me as I slammed my fist on the table in mid rant and say, solemnly, “I wish my particals could transport.” And I burst into laughter.
See, Frank’s doing his billion page research paper on the theory of Time Travel, and he spent ten hours or so searching through the web–which sounds like a stretch–and forgotten all about a worksheet. He did it, yes, but he hadn’t handed it in. I, doing Time Travel in Sci Fi, show him my packet on all the theories there are, and he says, that if Ms. Carter had given that to him in the first place, he wouldn’t have forgotten to hand in the paper, and he wouldn’t have lost the 11 points that just ruined his future life for college.
Time Travel is a bitch. And I love it.
God, I’m wondering where the luls came from. Like a pair of drunken idiots staggering aimlessly through the streets I’ve found my equal, someone who gets what I’m all about and reaches the level of sheer mockery and idiocy that one ought to mistaken us for the drugged up drunkens. Giggling, staggering, talking utter nonsense. And that’s that.
My favorite gym teacher eevvvaaah. Mr… Lawenson? Lawson? I’m not really sure, but he’s my favorite. And I wish I’d know him forever. I dunno, I guess there’s this thing about being called by my surname. ‘Ralson’. ‘Ralson, right?’
‘Yeah.’
‘Ralson. Sarah.’
‘Yes, sir.’
My friendship with Ryan is patching up beautifully. Especially how he calls me Ralson as well. :’D <3 Wally makes me lul, and I’m not even minding potato boy either. And mm, yeah, I can’t believe I’m sayin’ this, but I laughed hard. Wow kid, seriously?
At first I wasn’t sure whether or not to be angry, but the whole thing was just so damn hilarious, that I gave up. God forbid I think of my own comfort first, huh? I’m still really unsure what I did wrong, but then again, I just have to stand there to be wrong. Eh. I’m still unsure if she was gonna cry or hit me in the face, she looked like she was gonna do both, to be honest. I had simply wanted to inform her of my sudden change of mind, and see if she wanted to change over with me, but before I could continue, she exploded in angry rage.
Holy hell. She stormed away and I turned to a stunned gym teacher and Wally. Wally snorts and says, “I was not expecting that. She’s like a dragon.” which caused me to burst into laughter. And that was that. Realization, yeah. It’s done. It’s fairly obvious she doesn’t enjoy our friendship, which for the first time in my life, I’m not at all annoyed over, and I’m very fine with.
See, I’m afraid that something bad will happen to me if I get angry at someone, but hell. This is not happening anymore. I don’t deserve any of it. It isn’t running and it isn’t abandoning, and I’m not my mother. I’m me, and I’ve got to make my own choices, and I can’t fear things that I haven’t done wrong by. She didn’t like my relationship, she thought I was an idiot, she didn’t believe in me, she got angry.
She’s a good person. She is. A good friend, too, when she isn’t like that, and I’m sure she’ll have a nice lovely life, because that’s what I want for her. I want her to be happy, to have a beautiful life filled with joy and happiness and marry her boy and raise a loving family. I have no doubt that she’ll get over this little issue of…. anger? But I’m not sticking around. I’ve got a crazy mother.
But never mind this!
TIME TRAVEL. Finally, I’ve got a group of friends to talk to about it. Yes yes yes.
McRinny xB: Does
McRinny xB: There is no diffirence between time and any of the three dimensions of space except that our consciousness moves along it
McRinny xB: that explain itself plainly?
derblauenSharpie: That’s stupid.]
derblauenSharpie: Time is definitely it’s own dimension,
McRinny xB: Of course it is, but do you underst–EXACTLY
McRinny xB: But.
McRinny xB: You understand what that says, yes?
derblauenSharpie: Because it can be manipulated independantly of our 3 dementions.
derblauenSharpie: Yeah, I do.
derblauenSharpie: o.o Why?
McRinny xB: See, I had to explain to my teacher what it meant.
McRinny xB: o_o She’s teaching us Time Travel…
derblauenSharpie: xD Wow.
McRinny xB: But she has no idea what she’s saying.
derblauenSharpie: Wowowow.
McRinny xB: And I have to explain. D:
derblauenSharpie: Time travel works thoretically, but only into the future.
McRinny xB: She didn’t even understand what the 4 dem–
derblauenSharpie: Stupid bitch.
McRinny xB: See, I have to disagree with that.
McRinny xB: I believe there are many branches off our own reality.
derblauenSharpie: !!!
McRinny xB: I don’t think we can move backwards in our own timeline, but in others.
derblauenSharpie: Oh.
derblauenSharpie: I was going to say that my ideas were the same.
derblauenSharpie: But it’s not entirely.
derblauenSharpie: Totally, a new dimension in time splits off every second.
derblauenSharpie: Also, you should read an online comic call Star Slip Crisis.
derblauenSharpie: o.o It’s about space and time and art!
McRinny xB: The many worlds interpretation.
derblauenSharpie: Indeed.
McRinny xB: o_o Or quantum safasfa.
McRinny xB: >_> Where every thought we have, plays off in another world.
derblauenSharpie: Quite. o.o
derblauenSharpie: I’m gonna go to bed.
McRinny xB: XD Okay.
McRinny xB: Night.
derblauenSharpie: I’m still exhausted from my one day of work. xD
derblauenSharpie: G’night Rin.
derblauenSharpie: -would hug you but knows you’re a jew about giving out hugs-
