I feel bad saying it. I feel bad asking when I know it won’t happen. I feel bad that it’s actually the only thing I want for my birthday.
I just want you there for it.
I don’t want you to tell me that if that’s what I want then alright…I like surprises…I don’t like asking for surprises… if you can’t make it, you can’t make it. I want my birthday on my birthday.
I want you to sweep me off my feet and take me away. I’ll be 17…is that important for anything? Age didn’t matter to begin with. I want you to take me away to somewhere where we can be completely alone. I want to lay with you, be with you, sleep with you. I want to kiss you and hold you. I don’t need jewelery…I need you. (I feel like Rin has said that)
I don’t like how if I ask for something for my birthday I get it and it’s no surprise…I really do like surprises… just…when they work out…and if I like it… it depends on the surprise, you know? I don’t want someone to surprise me and then be upset if I don’t like it. That sorta thing.
I love you honey…and I’m sorry for being this way with my birthday…you try having your birthday by a holiday.
My birthday sucks every year, babydoll. Perhaps I’d see you the week after…I know it’s still a while away…but. I dunno. I feel like it’s closer than it should be.
…I dunno. I figured I should tell you.
Now you’re becoming everything