aristocracy.machiavellianism

I’m glad I understood the context of that statement, otherwise it would seem much dirtier.

In Asterisk! on November 28, 2009 at 6:41 pm

This Thanksgiving was one of the best Thanksgivings I’ve had in a very, very long time. Since the days that the whole family use to be together, and we’d play spy, or Mike, Dan and Ben would talk about girls and pat my head and say ‘when you’re older’. I miss my cousins, but Robin and John, their kids Dan and Alex, and of course Adury–but not so much her–are becoming family. There’s no seriousness, there’s no stifled laughter, it’s all…

Easy. Everyone talking at once, and I feel like I’m home. Will simply would not sit down for the life of him. Constantly getting up to help serve everyone, acting more like the woman than I was. And boy was there so much to eat, that the both of us were full a day later. Turkey, stuffing, sweet potato pie, mushrooms–oh lord, I can’t even go on, it was so mouth watering good. And the lasagna… Oh my god. Liz dropped the first batch on the floor–and everyone clapped. It’s not a Thanksgiving, they said, if you don’t drop something. Thankfully she made two. I would have died I couldn’t have had any. Ahaha.

The traditions have changed, and I had assumed all families were the same. Instead of sports being on, it was video games, and let me tell you I enjoyed the video games a whole lot more. Though secretly I miss the sports being on it the background. But this new life… it’s more lively and full of energy. And Lu was there! And the stories she had to tell got me laughing so hard.

And then Black Friday came. And I, claiming I didn’t want anything to do with it, turned to Will with big eyes and pleaded we go out. Luck he loves me, he said turning off FF9. He bought, surprise surprise Video Games, and got me a new wallet. I’m so pleased with it. Ahaha…

I wanna get closer to Jessie, but I’m unsure as to how to go about that. We’re like family, aren’t we? And Laura assures me that Jessie loves me. He asks about me all the time, she says. So there. He has a similar sense of humor as I do, and well. I dunno what or how to go about it.

Driving is much more fun than I had thought it would be. I guess I like it more since I’m alone, and I don’t have anyone judging me in the seat next to mine. Though I still drift to the shoulder. I tend to do that a lot. Eh.

My legs are getting worse. I can mind the pain while drivng, and while walking, but now they hurt when I lay down or sit. Just… they hurt. They burn. It’s usually my right leg/ankle that’s the biggest problem. I don’t know what to do about it. And I’m not so keen on getting more medication. And more, my week-long headaches are back. I mean, they use to be a lot worse than they are now, so I don’t really mind them as much, it’s just annoying.

All these words that we speak casually

In Asterisk! on November 26, 2009 at 3:17 pm

There’s always drama before/during holidays, a sort of bad luck thing that I tend to skip away from. Last year there was two sets of drama on the same day, on Thanksgiving, and now last night, a night before thanksgiving. I just don’t like Thanksgiving–what the hell do I have to be thankful for? I suppose a lot of things, but not anything I really want to admit to or share. Plus, I really don’t like my family. Or do I? It depends on my mood and how I want to present myself. Fern I love, my cousins–well, I do, but I’m annoyed with them. Who thought I’d ever carry a grudge?

 

 

It all will fall, fall right into place.

In Asterisk! on November 25, 2009 at 7:26 pm

You feel
The force of nature
We touch
And something charges

It’s something that’s overwhelming and I feel completely abandoned, though it’s something I could fix if only my mind didn’t spin tales. And all I want is to curl up and cry. And cry. And cry.